When you lose yourself in a soul connection, the real journey begins.
Sometimes an encounter with someone turns your whole system upside down. Not because it’s spectacular but because it hits so deeply Your body reacts and your mind understands nothing. You really become confused and you might start asking: Why do I feel this so strongly? Why does this affect me so deeply? Why am I so out of balance, when I hardly know this person
A moment that awoke everything inside me
I met him through a language app. He is Spanish and I was learning Spanish. It started out lightly with occasional practice but before long we felt a deep connection A bond we had never before experienced With each other we could be completely ourselves A friendship that felt like coming home but more intense and more confusing. We felt in love, although we didn’t really have words for exactly what we felt. Just “in love” didn’t cover it.
At the same time we struggled with guilt because of our partners. But it became a whirlpool you couldn’t fight. It felt as though we had known each other a long time a connection that went beyond words Week after week, our bond grew. At some point we were in contact, all day long. Always checking in “How are you feeling? What do you feel? Where are you?”
Oh, and did you know that for highly sensitive people such a connection feels even more intense? It turned out we were both highly sensitive. But anyway let’s return to the heart of my story.
When you lose yourself in a soul connection
Perhaps you recognize this. You meet someone and without warning you are touched in places you thought were already healed. Or places you didn’t even know existed. Especially when you are sensitive. Maybe you are also HSP. Then intense encounters can flood your entire system. You feel so much.Not only the other person, but everything in you that is still open. Your nervous system becomes overwhelmed. Your mind wants control while you feel that after this encounter your life will never be the same.
If Old Wounds Arise Without Warning
What I only realized later in my process, was that that one meeting touched a deep wound inside me. A wound of rejection of not being seen Pain. That I had been carrying with me for some time. I had already done therapy but this touch reached a part that was more unconscious. Something that lay deeper in my soul and to which words alone could not reach.
I was bullied in my childhood. For a long time intensively. And in therapy I had already learned to give certain feelings and experiences, like hiding your true feelings and making yourself small, a place. I dared to show myself. Still this meeting touched something deeper. Something I had not previously been able to feel. He touched old wounds hidden in my soul. Because of our breakup I entered a dark Night of the Soul.
The Dark Night of the Soul is a time when you feel deeply lost. Old pain comes up and you don’t know who you are for a while. It is confusing and heavy, but also a step toward healing.
When you lose yourself in a soul connection
Sometimes we lose ourselves in a deep connection. But that is where the most beautiful journey begins. Awakening to our true strength and self-love. In that encounter, we find the key to healing and coming home to ourselves.
When you lose yourself in a soul connection
Even though at the time I did not know what it was. My nervous system was in panic. Crying, I had the feeling of not being good enough. Of being abandoned and not being seen. I did not understand why this pain came up again, when I thought I had long ago processed it. I have a good life. A partner I’ve been with for many years and loving friends by my side
But I lost myself in him. I wanted to find something steady in him. In his words, his presence, his confirmation. I looked outward because I could not handle my inner world But somewhere I knew: This was not about him. It was about what I had yet to heal in myself. He touched my unfulfilled longings. My longing to be seen, for authenticity, safety in love.
When you lose yourself in a soul connection
And that is the extraordinary thing about such deep connections. You may call it a soul connection. A twin flame soul or whatever name you want to give it. When pain comes through conflict or separation you often think you must chase the other person That once things are good between you you will feel happy again. But precisely when together you appear happy. Whether in a relationship or a deep friendship. That is often the moment you stop with the real inner journey.
You stop working on the unresolved parts of yourself that now want to heal. You do not dare to fully know yourself on a soul level. Because this meeting had a deeper purpose: to awaken you and make you realize who you really are. To remind you that wholeness begins within yourself. Whole and happy in who you are. Independent of someone else. And then the real journey of your life begins: The journey inward.
When you lose yourself in a soul connection
Guided by My Intuition and the Cards
When I was a teenager I had a simple tarot deck. Something I had once received with a magazine. Every week I drew cards. More out of curiosity than conviction. Yet I found it remarkable how often the messages came uncannily close to my truth. But I did nothing with it for real. Somewhere along my life path I lost it. Probably during one of many moves. But it left something in me. Something that would come alive much later.
Back to the moment I was completely lost. After he suddenly began to shut down and something in me plunged into a deep inner crisis. That I later recognized as the Dark Night of the Soul. I was lost, but somewhere deep inside, I felt this was not the end. This was actually the beginning of something greater. In that same period I also spiritually awakened Just then I walked past a small spiritual shop. And without doubt I knew I had to go inside.
I was already looking for a beautiful angel oracle deck, though I didn’t yet know which. One thing I did feel was that I needed them. Why exactly I could not yet explain. But something in me knew I had to be there. When I stepped into the shop it felt like coming home.
Card Readings
From that day on I started laying cards. These cards gave words and meaning to what I couldn’t explain. They confirmed what my feeling already knew. But what I did not dare to trust. As if my guides softly whispered: You are not crazy. You are awakening.
Since then I pull cards every day. Sometimes several times a day. It is my way of communicating with my Guides. I don’t lay cards to predict whether my twin flame will come back. But to understand what I need now. To know what my soul wants to say. And what my heart needs to heal.
When you lose yourself in a soul connection
What Really Happens in Intense Connections
You may call such a connection a soul connection. A twin flame or soulmate. But you also know deep in your heart and soul how rare and precious such a meeting is. You have met someone who has touched you in a place that is not yet healed. It feels like love but also as a threat. Your body recognizes the intensity and thinks: This could hurt. And so your old protection mechanisms come up. You flee or you cling. Or you panic when the other person pulls away.
But do you know what I have learned? This is never only about the other person. It’s about coming home to yourself. With everything that may still need healing. Returning to Yourself and your inner strength. I let go of chasing him. Not because I don’t still feel him. Not because it no longer hurts. But because I have learned: What I was looking for in him, was always in me.
I am rediscovering myself. My strength and my feelings. What my boundaries are. May I experience gentleness in this harsh world. How can I accept my HSP in all this? And yes, I miss him. But I do not miss myself anymore. And that is maybe the most beautiful thing this encounter has given me.
Do You Recognize This?
Maybe you recognize this too. Maybe you also met someone who shook your whole system. Someone who touched old wounds. Someone who showed you something you had forgotten. Maybe you also feel confused, sad and searching. Then I want to tell you this:
You are not crazy. You are healing and you are not alone. Feel if you need support. Since my own awakening I have been intuitively reading cards. I work with oracle and angel cards tuned to your energy. Not to quickly give you a solution. But to help you remember who you are. Softly. Clearly and grounded.
Soon I will offer intuitive card readings for those who feel: I need clarity. Someone to look with me for a moment. If you want to stay updated, let me know, I will share more soon. Thank you for reading my story. If it touched you. feel free to leave something in the comments. I read them all with care.
When you lose yourself in a soul connection
Lovingly and carefully updated on: 13/10/2025
