The Deeper Reason You Can’t Fully Let Go, it’s because Your body still remembers. I remember exactly how it felt. Like I just couldn’t reach it.
Like there was always a kind of distance, between me and my own body. Or between me and my partner. And I knew it wasn’t about ‘figuring out what I liked’ or ‘talking more about my needs’. I had already done all of that. I knew my boundaries. And I had practiced touch, softness and safety.
And still…something was in the way. A layer. An old wall, quietly built. Not necessarily by choice.
Not by accident. And not just from subtle moments. But from real pain.
I was bullied as a child, deeply and for years.
And I didn’t feel safe in my body, even from a very young age.
I learned to shrink. To stay quiet and to make myself invisible, just to survive.
And being highly sensitive (HSP) only made it heavier.
I felt everything, from the energy in the room to the unspoken tension. Or other people’s moods.
Even before I had words for it, my body had already learned: it’s not safe to be here fully.
So I disconnected.
The Deeper Reason You Can’t Fully Let Go
Not because I wanted to, but because I had to.
How I always felt just a little too much. How my body learned to hold back, hide and adapt.
Bullying, being highly sensitive, picking up on other people’s emotions before they even spoke.
And the things I have no words for, but my body still remembers them.
And to be honest? I didn’t have loving people around me who saw that or guided me through it.
I really thought I had healed it all. In therapy. In talking and in understanding. Until I met my twin flame. A twin flame is not necessarily a romantic connection. But a meeting of souls on the deepest level. This person touches the parts of you that need healing. Not to hurt you, but to help you grow. It’s a mirror that challenges you, so you can heal and fully come into your own. A twin flame connection often includes a period of separation. Not as an ending, but as space to grow. In that distance, both souls transform, so they can reunite more whole, more true, more aligned.
And it was during our separation that everything I thought I had processed came rushing back.
That deep sense of abandonment. The feeling of not being safe in my body.
Of being trapped inside myself. It all came up again. But this time… I listened differently. I started over. Not with more books. Not with more talking.
But with a deeper search.
I found a hypnotherapist who helped me go a little further. Not all the way, but far enough to know there was more. And then I began a training, one that would shift everything
Healing and surrender through the Power of Energy
During my training as an energetic facilitator, I learned how deeply trauma can root itself in the energy body. Painful experiences don’t just affect the mind, they leave imprints on the physical and energetic levels as well. I discovered how blocked or imbalanced chakras can reflect emotional wounds. How psychological trauma often manifests as physical symptoms. It was a journey inward. One that taught me to truly listen to the subtle language of the body and energy system.
I discovered I still had so much to heal. Not in my mind, but in my energy.
In my subconscious and in the parts of me that no words can reach. I’m truly grateful for my training. As it gave, and still gives, me the tools to understand healing on a deeper level. Not just through the mind, but through the body and energy system as well. It allowed me to connect with myself and others in a more intuitive, grounded and compassionate way. Someone who supports others in healing the deeper layers, beyond the mind, in connection with the body and the energetic field.
Surrender is not giving up. But gently opening to trust, softness and the quiet strength within.
Healing Begins with Softness
And you know what? You know what? During that training, I deeply felt that it was okay to still be figuring things out. That I didn’t have to be healed by now, or have everything sorted just because of my age. Especially around sexuality. The parts of me that still find it hard to fully surrender. I realised there’s no rush, no deadline. Healing happens in layers, in moments. And it’s okay that it’s unfolding now, in the way it is. It’s not too late. I’m not behind. I’m exactly where I need to be.
We can learn so much about relaxation. About communication. About boundaries.
And all of that is valuable.
But when your energetic system is still in survival mode. When old pain is still stored in places your mind can’t access, then there will always be something in you that pulls back when you long to open.
The Deeper Reason You Can’t Fully Let Go
Surrender doesn’t require the perfect situation. It doesn’t need everything to be right.
It needs safety. Deep and embodied safety.
And that doesn’t start with what you think, it starts all with what you feel.
What your system believes and what your subconscious still holds.
You can’t force yourself to surrender. You can only create the conditions where it’s safe enough to happen on its own. Gently, in your time and in your own way. And maybe that’s the most beautiful thing of all. That your body, your energy is always showing you where you are.
It’s not working against you, it’s working for you.
It’s waiting for you to come home.
🌿 Dear you,
If this resonates with you, know that you are not alone. There is nothing wrong with you and you don’t need to try harder. You’re allowed to soften. To meet yourself again. Unfolded within.
The Deeper Reason You
Lovingly and carefully updated on: 15/10/2025
