Grief over my twin flame drove me to despair

Grief over my twin flame drove me to despair and my disbelief grew. Why do I feel this way, after there was a breakup between my twin flame and me? I feel devastated. I think that’s the right word that describes everything. With every household chore I did, I cried. As soon as I got up, I realized the breakup and started crying. My heart wanted to scream, but I suffered in silence because my partner was sleeping next to me. Restless, I quickly got out of bed to go downstairs. There I could let my tears go.

I was so angry with myself, why did I feel this? What was the reason I felt this breakup so intensely? Heartbreak to the max, and that while I thought I should cry for my partner, I mean….. He and I had been completely driven apart by big problems that we just couldn’t get over. Still, I couldn’t feel any sadness about this. As if there was only room for my twin flame and my intensely strong feelings for him.

Grief over my twin flame drove me to despair

I couldn’t stand myself and thought I shouldn’t feel this about myself. But no matter how I tried to hide my feelings, it didn’t work. It was too strong and too overwhelming. As soon as I was in nature, and I saw the trees and all the greenery, I came to rest. Of course I cried, but less. It seemed as if the rustling of the leaves had a healing effect on me.

I thought about him every second of the day. Obsessive. I had that while we were still together, but those were nice obsessive thoughts. He experienced it with me, and we couldn’t get enough of each other. But now that we’ve said goodbye, and he never wants to be in touch again because he doesn’t have any feelings for me anymore, I feel betrayed. Angry and in disbelief. How is it possible that a bond that is so strong that he no longer feels it? No, this can’t be true. My ego was busy fueling my grief. I just couldn’t get any rest.

Finding a way out

I had to find a way out of my inner whirlpool. I couldn’t move on with my life like this. Sometimes I felt like I was going crazy. The longing, sadness and despair were so intense. Furthermore, I had a conflict with my mind and ego. I didn’t want to experience these feelings, but actually I thought I was very strange. How is it possible that I have such strong emotions for a man I have never met in real life.

How was it possible that we felt that our souls were one? That is incomprehensible to many people. And I was so mad at him. How could he deny his feelings all of a sudden? As if he had never loved me. yes, I’m just saying it. The feeling of loving, was there. Both he and I have always denied that, but it was there. It didn’t have to be spoken, because things are whispered to you by your intuition. Well, whispered, the feeling was actually overwhelming. But both he and I liked to approach this with our minds and egos.

Grief over my twin flame drove me to despair

Nothing came out of my hands except for housework and cooking. I didn’t enjoy anything anymore and was constantly stressed. The only thing I managed to do was exercise and walk. Furthermore, I had found some forums on the internet where I found like-minded people. The stories I read on these forums seemed to be about me. People who had also met their twin flame and were now going through a separation.

My first steps towards a way out

I have to be honest and let it be known that I thought the whole concept of twin flame was weird, and I also found myself fighting against it. If this was supposed to be your trip, I would have preferred not to. How can this be a true love story? With so much pain? No, it couldn’t be true. The more I read, the more I found out what a twin flame actually was. And actually…. From that moment on, I knew for sure that my other half was my twin flame. And of course, he’s still my twin.

There were a lot of tips on those forums that were useful to me. I thought the most important one was, put the focus on yourself. And work on yourself. I had to work on myself, I felt that I had to go through the pain. That was the only way, the way through which I could find an exit from this maze. To be honest, I didn’t have an easy childhood. But I’ve had quite a lot of therapy, and I really thought I had already processed a lot. Yet it could be that unprocessed emotions have remained in my subconscious and energy field.
It makes sense.

You know what I did too, to get a little more clarity? I requested a reading from a medium. I wanted to know if my gut feeling was right. And yes, she was able to tell me a lot about the period in my life that I was in. And I was told why my twin flame had come into my life. She also told me a lot about my current relationship. This consultation of hers, Along with working on myself, I gave the strength to keep going. I saw a way out, the only way I could take to escape from this madness. My first appointment at the hypnotherpeut had already been made, and I was impatiently looking forward to it.