My twin flame left me lost and broken

My twin flame left me lost and broken after the breakup. The emotions were intense, devastating and overwhelming.
They caught me off guard, because I didn’t fully understand what was happening.
I always knew our bond was different… that he touched something deep in my heart and soul.
But I never expected it to hurt this much.
Still, I was determined to understand, even though I had no idea what this kind of connection truly meant.

I thought strong emotions were reserved for long-term love, for relationships that had time to grow.
It felt strange, even impossible, to feel so much in such a short time…
Especially with someone I hadn’t even met in person.
But no matter how I tried to reason with myself, my soul refused to follow.

It was as if my words had no place to land.
My heart didn’t believe them. My soul didn’t receive them.
It felt like the only truth that mattered was the one within.
Like my deeper self knew — this wasn’t just a fleeting moment.
This was something sacred.

The things I told myself didn’t feel like they belonged to me.
They hung around me awkwardly, like a raincoat on a clear day…
and the rain, soft and relentless, washed every thought away
until only the feeling remained. Undeniable.
Real. Alive.

My twin flame left me lost

All my thoughts slipped away, like raindrops disappearing into the earth.
Only my heart and soul made any sense.
I felt devastated, alone, and achingly sad.
Every moment of the day, I missed him, not just him as a person, but his soul.
It was as if something sacred had been ripped away.
I was torn in two, caught in a strange in-between, wondering if I had truly lost my mind.

From that moment on, my mind seemed to operate separately from my heart and soul.
I couldn’t understand how this was even possible, how I could feel so much for someone I had never met in person.
And yet, from the very first message, there was something extraordinary.
Our connection was instant, deep, and electric.

In early January last year, everything felt perfect.
There was a calm, a rightness between us, something that didn’t need explanation.
We clicked effortlessly. We talked every single day, often for hours, as if no time existed at all.
He opened up to me fully, sharing the most intimate corners of his heart.
He trusted me completely, and I trusted him in return.
It felt natural, like breathing.
Like we had always known each other, soul to soul.

My twin flame left me lost.

My heart and soul

Despite being out of touch, I still feel a deep, almost aching desire to be near him.
It’s like my soul is longing for something it once knew.
I wonder, does he feel it too?
Was it all real, or was I just imagining it?
Sometimes I question everything…Was I too dependent on him?
Where did my self-worth go?
I used to be grounded in who I was, but now it feels like I’ve lost my footing.
Is my mind playing tricks on me, or was the connection as real as I remember?

How could he disappoint me like this?
How could something so strong just vanish overnight?
But deep down, in a place beyond thought, I know it didn’t disappear.
He’s burying his emotions, afraid to feel them, afraid of the truth they might reveal.
Still, it hurts, this silence, this distance.
I just wanted it all to stop, the guessing, the doubting, the second-guessing of every word, every feeling.

Soul to soul

How could someone I never met in person change the course of my heart like this? And yet, somewhere deep inside, I recognized him.
Soul to soul.
Even though he was afraid of losing himself in this, even though the intensity scared us both,
I knew, and still know, it was something more than that.

When the contact started to fade, the emotional bond somehow grew stronger.
And with it, a fear of losing him settled in.
Even now, as I write this, I find myself shaking my head, because it all sounds so unreal.
Too intense, too fast, too unlikely.
He has a family. He lives in another country. It wasn’t supposed to happen… but it did. And somehow, even now, I carry him with me.

My twin flame left me…

…(and he popped back in like a surprise guest, only to vanish again just as quickly)

I’ve been with my boyfriend for twenty years.
Long before my twin flame appeared, I wasn’t truly happy anymore.
That dissatisfaction had been quietly growing inside me for a long time.

When my twin flame arrived, it was at a time that felt both impossible and perfectly timed.
Life became more tangled, more complicated.
Here I was, caught between a relationship that was familiar but no longer fulfilling, and a soul connection that stirred intense emotions I hadn’t known before.

My twin flame moved on and said he no longer felt for me.
Though I doubted his words, I wasn’t sure how to interpret them.
What I did know was that I needed to turn inward, to focus on healing, on self-discovery, on nurturing my own heart.

Update:

And so I began that journey.
Step by step, I moved deeper into my own truth.
And now, I’ve reconnected with my twin flame. He came back for a moment, only to disappear again.
Right now, I’m staying out of connection because it drains too much energy. He is still very much caught in the matrix, living in his mind, not from his heart.

He is always welcome in my heart, my heart remains open.
But I choose to wait for a true connection, one that flows deeply from the heart.

I believe he doesn’t fully understand why he keeps thinking of me, why he keeps wondering how I’m doing.
He truly wanted to stay friends, just to know how I was, because I kept haunting his mind. But so far, I’ve heard nothing more.

I think he doesn’t quite get why I keep popping up in his head and why he’s still wondering how I’m doing.
He really wanted to stay friends just so he could keep tabs on me, because apparently, I’m like a catchy song he can’t get out of his mind.

In the meantime, I’ve learned to look deeper, to see beyond the surface of this world, beyond the lines of text. I read between the lines.
And listen with my heart to what is really unfolding, not just what he says.

Until the moment he finds his own truth,
I choose myself. I choose my own twin flame healing journey. I understand now that these feelings are not about dissatisfaction or escape.
They are part of my soul’s story, irrepressible, undeniable, and separate from my long-term relationship.
And in the last year, I’ve also found healing and growth within that relationship.

Life isn’t simple.
But in embracing all parts of it, I am learning to honor my heart, fully and gently.