Orgasm blockages: Your body remembers more than your mind has long forgotten! About struggles with orgasm, blockages and how to gently find yourself again.
You know, there are things we don’t easily talk about. Things that quietly sit deep inside us.
Like having trouble reaching climax. Or feeling like you’re not really there when it comes to intimacy.
A libido that suddenly disappears.
A body that shuts down and doesn’t cooperate.
And the hardest part? It often feels like no one truly sees how heavy that can be.
Sometimes you don’t even see it yourself. I’ve carried that for years.
And I understand you, as deeply as you might be feeling this right now.
Orgasm blockages: Your body remembers more than your mind
Being bullied and feeling unsafe. What it does to your body.
I was bullied for years. Really bullied, day after day, all through elementary school.
And at home, it wasn’t always safe either.
So I learned that my body wasn’t a safe place. I retreated into my head, because that felt a little like protection. Feeling? Trust? Boundaries?
That was hard. My body was always tense. Ready to defend itself, but actually closed off.
What I didn’t know then, but feel now deeply,
is how profoundly these experiences embed themselves. Not just in your mind, but in your whole body, your energy and your heart.
Orgasm blockages: Your body remembers more than your mind
Surrender? I thought it just wasn’t for me
For a long time, I thought I just couldn’t do it: Truly surrender.
Not just in bed, but in love and in myself.
I thought it was because of me, that I was too sensitive or different.
That maybe surrendering and trusting just wasn’t something I was meant to do.
But later, I began to feel: It wasn’t me.
It was what happened back then. How my body learned that being open is dangerous.
That I couldn’t trust myself. And so I closed off. Protected myself without realizing it.
I did therapy, and it helped me understand what happened. But something remained that words couldn’t touch. A knowing in my body that said: You might have processed it in your mind, but I still feel it. Your body remembers everything. Your heart, your muscles, your pelvis. They keep stories you sometimes forget.
Orgasm blockages: Your body remembers more than your mind
My twin flame touched old wounds
Then I met someone, my soul connection, my twin flame.
Our connection was intense. The connection was truly incredible. It felt like coming home, even though we didn’t realize we had been away. It was so tender and intimate.
But also very intense. Because after he left, all the wounds that had been touched stayed wide open, deep inside.
He touched something I thought I had already processed.
But deep inside, old wounds opened. Wounds of not being seen.
Of feeling like I wasn’t fully allowed to be me.
When contact ended, I felt abandoned and sad, as if my inner child was speaking again.
Sexuality is more than just physical
Sex isn’t just touch or lust. Sex is energy, connection and surrender.
But when your body learned that openness is dangerous, it doesn’t feel safe.
Letting go feels scary, like losing yourself. And that feels very lonely. So if you wonder:
Why can’t I do this? Why do I feel so closed off? Why can’t I enjoy this?
Know this: It’s not you. Your body is just trying to keep you safe.
Your body is wiser than your mind
What I’ve learned: therapy is valuable, but it doesn’t always reach everything.
Because besides a mind that understands, you have a body that feels.
A heart that remembers.
An energy field that holds everything unseen and unhealed.
Sometimes these things only come up years later. Or only when you meet someone who touches your system. And yes, that can be intense but it’s also an invitation. A way back to you.
To your body and to safety.
Your body holds every memory — your heart, your muscles, your soul.
They carry stories you may have forgotten, inviting you to heal with kindness and love.
What I want to say to you
You don’t have to fight your body. Or even force it. You may listen and soften.
Give space to what wants to be felt. Without rush, without judgment. Surrender isn’t a trick. Not a performance. It’s a slow, loving coming home to yourself.
With your boundaries, at your own pace.
I write this not because I know it all, but because I have felt it myself.
I used to think I was too much, too sensitive, too closed off. But now I know: my body spoke the truth long before my mind understood.
Deep healing on a soul level
Since meeting my twin flame, I’ve really begun to heal. Deeply, on a soul level.
I started training as an energy facilitator. There I learn how to heal body, soul and energy together. Through bodywork and exercises, I’ve learned that letting go isn’t scary.
That it is safe for me to stay.
And if I can do this, I truly believe you can too.
You are not alone and you are not broken.
You are starting to heal and that is so beautiful. ✨✨✨
